Before I was a Mom …

So with Phoenix being a defiant and treacherous 3-year-old and pretty much sawing away at the last bit of dental floss that is keeping from falling into a complete and utter meltdown, I found this earlier and it made me tear up a little bit … it made me realise that she is only 3 and she is going to test my patience and put me into survival mode on more than one occasion and that I do need to just take a step back and remember that under that folded arm, eye rolling, ‘I dont have to say please and thank you’ demon child my little Monkey Girl is there … somewhere … faraway … very faraway sometimes, but there nonetheless…

Before I was a Mom …
I made and ate hot meals,
I had unstained clothing.
I had quiet conversations on the phone.
Before I was a Mom …
I slept as late as I wanted and never
worried about how late I got into bed.
I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday.

Before I was a Mom …
I cleaned my house each day.
I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to lullabies.

Before I was a Mom …
I didn’t worry whether my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom …
I had never been pooped on,
Spit up on,
chewed on,
Peed on,
Or pinched by tiny fingers.

Before I was a Mom …
I had complete control of myself,
My thoughts,
My body,
And my mind.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom …
I never held down a screaming child so that
doctors could do tests or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom …
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn’t want to put it down.
I never felt my heart-break into a million pieces
when I couldn’t stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom …
I didn’t know the feeling of having
my heart outside my body.
I didn’t know how special it could feel
to feed a hungry baby.
I didn’t know that bond between a
Mother and her child.

Before I was a Mom …
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
every ten minutes to make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth,
The joy,
The love,
The heartache,
The wonderfulment,
Or the satisfaction of being a Mom.

I didn’t know I was capable of feeling
so much before I was a Mom.

~ Author Unknown ~

xoxo

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