I am so glad I found Yeah. Good Times. because her last post is EXACTLY how I feel lately and have been tempted to repost old posts but chickened out in fear of being cornered on the street and being laughed at so to know there is someone out there that feels the same I am so relieved.
The thing that gets me down the most is going through all the blogs I read and or follow and their posts seems so free-flowing and I sit back and think “why can’t I be cool like that?”
So thank you to Yeah. Good Times for allowing me into the “they suck” group until I find my writing fairy again – little bitch has eloped with some goblin and who knows when she will be back, so in the mean time I will stay in the group and eat worms.
Here is the post – words that I couldn’t find:
“I’ve been sucking lately. Sucking at blogging, that is. Probably some of you will disagree with me, but this post isn’t mean to elicit sympathy so please don’t disagree with me because you’ll make me cranky. Moreso.
No, lately it’s like I either have nothing in my head to get out, or I have lots of good stuff and I can’t make it coherent. At least not without help (Yeah I’m talking to you) I’ve been re-posting stuff because I don’t like being blank every day. (And because I’m kind of lame, really, when you think about it.) But I read back on these things that I’ve written months ago and I’m like “man, I used to be good at this. What the hell happened?”
Bu the truth is we can’t all be good at shit all the time, can we? We can’t always be eloquent. We can’t always be insightful. We can’t always even be coherent. We just are what we are, we’re human, and we can’t really get down on ourselves because of it, so I’ve decided to make this post (and turn off comments, because you’re meant to read it and that’s all) be a big party for all of us to allow ourselves to simply suck sometimes.
It’s okay to suck sometimes. I’ve sucked before, and eventually I got better. And then I sucked again. It’s the cycle of life, and being awesome is a part of that cycle, right alongside the sucking. So if you think you suck? It’s okay. Me, too. But we’ll get better. “